This week has been a roller coaster of emotion. If there has been a silver lining to the storm clouds the past few months, it has been that we were able to refresh ourselves away from the constant reminders of her death. While we love our home, it is filled to the brim with her….
Category: motherhood
Amanda the Panda Family Grief Camp Weekend
Our family was recently privileged to be a part of a wonderful weekend put on by Amanda the Panda Family Grief Center. This wonderful organization was founded to help families deal with the loss of a child but has branched out over the years to include other loss as well. Our counselor, Miss Kendra (Imagine…
Remembering
“He will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. Is 61:3″6 months ago tonight I lay on a cold hard hospital bed surrounded by wires, stroking the sweet soft face of my beautiful 3 year old daughter. I could only handle a few moments…
The Journey
Today is yet another Monday. Some days I actually think I may not dread them quite as much as at the beginning of this, our journey of grief. I have been getting sleep now. Most nights. We are laughing again more amidst random surges of tears. We are on a journey of establishing our new…
A New Page
Since some of you don’t have face book, I wanted to share our latest update here. We have been busy trying to establish new family normals and happy times and accept what our new family structure looks like. Soon after Abby died, a beautiful young photographer, Kayla Gingerich, (http://kaylagingerich.blogspot.com/) wrote me the sweetest email offering to…
Happy Birthday in Heaven
Dear precious Abby 4 years ago tonite I went in to labor on my due date with you which was a first for me. Beings you were baby number 4 I figured I could just head in and pop you out. How wrong I was. You were my longest birthing process, almost 12 hours. You were…
Peace
Peace is not the absence of conflict, but the presence of God – unknown How does one experience peace in the midst of complete chaos and the deepest pain one could fathom?I used to question how one could remain calm and appear peaceable after having their life shattered by terrible tragedy or loss.I am learning…
Process
July 14, 2014 will forever be marked down in our history as the day that changed everything – literally. It marked a new process, one that has so dramatically turned our world upside down. Some days I feel lost. I wonder around feeling like I should be doing something but find the what to be…
Celebrating Abby ~ a Photo Journal of her Funeral week events ~ July 19, 2014 (Group 2)
I had so many wonderful photographers show up to help us remember the moments of Abby’s celebration. Each one is taken from a bit of a different view point and each one has been equally special to us. This grouping was taken by my dear friend, Natalie Yutzy. She came to our home for our…