“Only Grieving can release us from grief” – Joan Chittister “Going on” with “normal” life since Abby has gone is one of the most challenging things I have ever faced. What is normal? And just what exactly is the “new normal” everyone keeps referring to and how will it look for us and our newly […]
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“He will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. Is 61:3″6 months ago tonight I lay on a cold hard hospital bed surrounded by wires, stroking the sweet soft face of my beautiful 3 year old daughter. I could only handle a few moments […]
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Today is yet another Monday. Some days I actually think I may not dread them quite as much as at the beginning of this, our journey of grief. I have been getting sleep now. Most nights. We are laughing again more amidst random surges of tears. We are on a journey of establishing our new […]
Continue readingThe Blessing of Cousins
In collaboration with Patience Brewster, a small town, family oriented brand, I decided to share a special family photo memory in honor of the upcoming holidays, my 2 favorite ~ Thanksgiving & Christmas. Patience is an artist, and illustrator of children’s books, greeting cards and a designer of delightful Christmas ornaments & gifts. Since I am […]
Continue readingMy Favorite Things
In many ways we are entering one of my favorite seasons of the year. Now let me clarify. I like a few days with the pretty white fluffy stuff but then I am tooooo cold and long to fly south like the birds. Overall I do enjoy the changing of seasons. With Abby’s death this […]
Continue readingA New Page
Since some of you don’t have face book, I wanted to share our latest update here. We have been busy trying to establish new family normals and happy times and accept what our new family structure looks like. Soon after Abby died, a beautiful young photographer, Kayla Gingerich, (http://kaylagingerich.blogspot.com/) wrote me the sweetest email offering to […]
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This week marks 3 months since the tragedy that took our Abby home to Jesus.So much has happened since. We are moving on in our “new life” as best as we can. I finally feel some days when I leave the house that we are becoming more “normal” and I don’t feel as much like […]
Continue readingKansas Family – Grief trip part 2
We are having an amazing week traveling about in Bessie (our trusty motorhome) making memories with our new family structure of 5. We had always wanted to visit 2 of my mama’s sisters and their families in Kansas and decided now was the perfect time. Time flew but I managed to snap a few photos […]
Continue readingHappy Birthday in Heaven
Dear precious Abby 4 years ago tonite I went in to labor on my due date with you which was a first for me. Beings you were baby number 4 I figured I could just head in and pop you out. How wrong I was. You were my longest birthing process, almost 12 hours. You were […]
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Peace is not the absence of conflict, but the presence of God – unknown How does one experience peace in the midst of complete chaos and the deepest pain one could fathom?I used to question how one could remain calm and appear peaceable after having their life shattered by terrible tragedy or loss.I am learning […]
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